Post-Erasmus depression
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September. Time of arrival for 400,000 European students who set up in one of the hundreds of University cities that host the Erasmus project. But September is, unfortunately, also the time for getting back to their routines for about 350,000 students who, in the past academic year, have gone through an experience that is said to be capable of transforming one’s life in most of the cases. At least for one year or a semester. After that, one gets back to his own old habits and can trigger a sort of “post-Erasmus depression”.
If you type such an expression into Google no psychology site pops out. By contrast, I came across the unbeatable dissertation written by Fiorella de Nicola about the subject Antropologia dell'Erasmus. Partire studenti, vivere sballati, tornare uomini «Anthropology of the Erasmus. Leaving as students, ruining our lives, returning as adults»). It might be an irony of life, but Fiorella and I – Fiorella was in Alicante during the academic year 2004/5 – are from the very same city, Cava de’ Tirreni [ I enjoyed making a montage of the two towns. Our little town is nice but would not Fiorella have written the same stuff if she had left for little Finnish village?]

My compatriot got it very right in depicting the naivety of those who are living the last days of the Erasmus experience:
«They don’t have a clue about what is waiting for them back in their countries “the post Erasmus syndrome”. They don’t know how horrible their house will look, their city either too cold or too hot, University boring as never before, the TV squalid, their friends just average…they will be overwhelmed by a depression as huge as a Kuala Lumpur sky scraper. They will reject anything which is not related to their Erasmus. The syndrome is experienced by all, without exception, but the intensity and the length of it will vary. Since it is just a syndrome that will be by definition a temporary condition, a thing that can, must, last just a while…not to become pathetic»
Her speculation on the meaning of the word identity managed to convince us:
«In short we must be prepared to lead an existence of outsiders, people without roots. That will be not because we don’ t have a homeland. In fact we will have too! Or even more. Ours, the one we were born and brought up in. The one that has “adopted” us for one or two semesters. Our friend’s ones: Germans, French, Portuguese, Mexicans, English, Scandinavians, Americans, Canadians: their houses in Alicante were ours. And who knows what kind of magic was applied in order for us to feel that a bit of their cultures, their friends’, has become part of us… «It might as well be that this funny joke of the European identity is not that far from reality»
Will that be true? And how to come out from the Post Erasmus depression? Eurogeneration opens up the debate.
Have your say, in the comments.
Translated by Alessandro Mancosu - Welcome, Alessandro on Eurogeneration!
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Comments
So true...
It's one year (already?) since I returned from the most extraordinary experience I have ever lived.
the sadness is still there, my thoughts run to the same small and beautiful german city, as well as towards the so very many friends I made during my two semesters as an Erasmus.
I do not know whether I have returned more of a man but what is for sure is that I am richer, more open-minded and more conscious of me.
Where did you go alin? Where did you come from? Tell us a bit more about this experience if you like
I came back two weeks ago from my erasmus.
I feel completely as you describe in your text. I want to believe that it's temporary, but it's being harder and harder, I'm afraid to forget actually, and that's killing me. I miss everything so much, and I don't like what I have back in my hometown.
It's hard to deal with it.
This is exactly how I feel. I came back the 12th of june after one year as an erasmus in Canterbury, England. Not only did I find the best friends ever, but I was so lucky as to find the love of my life. We are still together, living in-between Spain (I am from Madrid) and Italy (she's from Florence), and planning a future together. As for the friends I made, I miss them so much, every single moment. But despite the sadness of being away from them, I feel happy, lucky and thankful for the year we spent together and the certainty that we will meet again.
Congratulations for this blog!!
Hi Adriano,
I've just came back from my one-year-erasmus-adventure and... yes, and now I feel a bit lost. It was unbelivable experience to meet all that people and to take part of all events and ... yeah - I'll never forget it - it was the best year of my life! I want back!!!
@ Mario, I must say you're not alone and that as for me I am now married with that girl who met me during her Erasmus year and we have a child... thank you for the congrat and hope to exchange with you again on Eurogeneration!
I agree with almost every opinion written here, and all the feelings. I am from Spain, I have been as erasmus last year in Holland, and there i met really nice people, friends for the whole life, But i found there the love with a dutch girl aswell, and that changed my life even more. As mario, i feel lucky, and happy because of the experience, but also sad because now we are in a distance relationship, but anyway this experience is worthy and i invite everybody feel it.
Thanks for this post!
ahhh.... Erasmus!!!! i agree that it was the best time in my life!!!! i've never felt so happy and never met so many nice people liek during erasmus!!! and that's true that after coming back everything looks worse and the old friends seem to be regular!!! the best once i met in Portugal and i want to meet them again... i came back from erasmus 2 months ago, but i was so depressed and the weather was so bad that i decided to go for a euro trip to visit some of my erasmus friend in their normal life!!! it was great expirance as well and it was like second Erasmus;) some of them i didn't see for half year... but unfortunetly my uni started again and i was shoked the first days to sit in the horrible classroom, to listen the horrible profesor and to be round regular people that don't understand your feelings!!!! and one thing i'm afraid of is coming back to old customs... i'm diffrent now and i don't wanna live like before!!!! and i even discover that i want to study sth a little bit diffrent and i'm going to change my specialisation just to do sth new!!! to bring my erasmus expirance into real new life!!! what's more i discovered now, that my earlier life wasn't so nice and a little bit boring;) and there is one thing that helps me go through all of this... that's msn and the possibility to talk to erasmus people and the possibility to meet some people from my city which were with me in Portugal;)
I was wondering if you are doing any more studies on severe depression and if you need any more volunteers. Only problem being that I cannot eat fish oil because I am a vegan.
Viva Erasmus!!! Just after Erasmus you need a new liver. maybe we have to ask some fund for replacing ex erasmus' livers...
well.. this is totally true! I can not call myself an Erasmus, but I was an exchange student in Manchester last year and most of my friends were Erasmus, so I feel the same.
I agree when it says "people without roots" but I would add that now we are also people with wings.. people that can fly everywhere to make our dreams come true
so true... everyone i know who has done this, has come back completely depressed ...
One day theyre mildly rubbing it in everyone's face, that they are living the dream... the next they are feeling miserable and wanting to die from such boredom that their homeland gives them. Im glad that I find traveling pointless. Things may be beautiful to look at...so look at it all through media, and get back to building your life! The only way traveling is acceptable for more than 2 weeks / year, is if you have no home and you will travel until death, living on the edge constantly .. which in fact i do concur with! These people will most likely never appreciate certain fruits of life, such as love or security and stability. But some people may not need that to be happy!
also, its hard to be happy, coming back from a long trip, with no money..having to work 90 hrs a week, start building their future at a late age.. still haven't completed that degree... all when you could have had the same time of your life at home ..with your homeland friends!!! Its not about where you go.. its about who you spend your time with and how you do it! Some people have no logic, and they will pay the price, one being post erasmus depression
I came back from one year of Erasmus in Leicester, UK. What can I say... It's really hard now but this has been the best experience of my life so far. I met just so many people, made some true friends, fell in love (and then fell out of it, haha), had SO MUCH FUN, saw new places, it was perfect. My friends here in Greece feel like I'm rejecting them but they just don't know what it feels like to be an Erasmus student...
Also: @canadian
IT IS about who you spend your time with and this is one of the reasons why Erasmus is such an important experience, because you get to meet so many new and different people. But it also IS about where you go. Actually living in a foreign country is completely different from going there on a holiday and it sure is different from looking at pictures of it...
Anyway, I don't wanna sound obnoxious but the truth is you can't really know what this experience feels like until you actually live it yourself.
joder ya a pasado todo valla xascoo tiiiiooooo! arggg
Two years ago I came back from Lueneburg, Germany, where I spent one semester. I faced a severe depression and was thinking life`s not worth it any more. It took me 4 months to overcome this feeling. However, I never regretted that I went erasmus, because - in fact - it was the beginning of a new life that I ever wanted. I became more spontaneous, open-minded, I learned that life can be beautiful and that I can shape it myself. Friends from my homecountry I met in Lueneburg came back with me and we continued this experience. Thanks to them, I fell in love, and learned to love my homecity again and to feel well there. But still, sometimes when I hear the songs I used to listen to in Lueneburg, I feel like crying. I agree everything has its price, and you must pay it when you leave...And no one who didn`t go on such a trip can really understand it.
I think that thanks to erasmus I`ve won a life.
I spent the most wonderful year of my so far life in Sweden in 2005/2006 - and still - sometimes the depression of never going back to this special situation brings me down... I miss you all!!!
I was 1 year on Valencia. Best experience of my life. I would have it again, and again, and again.
While I was there I missed some things in my hometown, like I'm sure many of you did. But after it was all over, and specially when classes started again in my university... I felt bored to death "What am I doing here?".
I know one of the reasons I went on Erasmus was because I disliked my university and the changes it made in the last two years, I needed fresh air.
But before I went on Erasmus I had the so common idea that "the grass was greener on the other side of the fence". The main problem was probably that when I was there, the grass was actually greener, not perfectly green, but definitly worlds apart.
Some might feel this way because of the night life, or similar things, but this was not the case with me, I'm not really out-going, although I like to travel and know new places, I didn't even had that many nights on parties.
@canadian
Reading you comments leaves me only one feeling... pity. Yes, I pity you, cause you're dead and you'll never notice it.
me siento tan identificada con todos ustedes...yo creo que de lo que más me siento triste es saber que los amigos que deje en mi pais natal no entienden por lo que estoy pasando, no entienden esta tristeza, estos "cambios de mentalidad", estas ideas "inovadoras". me siento atrapada, no me gusta el hecho de no ser "independiente". mis papás me dicen o me dan a entender que tengo que superar esto pero me siento triste que de alguna manera tenga que poner esto detras de mi, no quiero olvidar todo lo que vivi..porque como poder dejar atras algo que me ha hecho una nueva persona..
también a todo esto se suma que tuve un novio allá..y a pesar de que ya no somos novios sigo pensando mucho en el...que horrible sentimiento! :S como equilibrar el seguir la vida que tenia antes con mi vida post-erasmus?!! AYUDA!! 
i'm leaving for my erasmus in germany or spain (i dont know yet) in september but i already know that after 10 months abroad i'll feel awful when i come back.
i havent left yet but i can understand what you are going through, hope i'll get through with it when it's my turn : )
anyway, you can still take part into the erasmus mundus project, right?
we are currently on erasmus and coming quickly to the end of our experience of living as foreigners in france and the feeling that is setting in is undescribable. already we can relate to the symptoms of post erasmus depression. the thought of a life after erasmus is not comprehensible. there is not enough information regarding this syndrome it should be taken more seriously by professionals. the memories and friends we have made this year will never be forgotten and cannot be replaced....
I'm still on Erasmus, eventhough is pretty much over by now, exams done, farewell partyies, people returning, packing up is definitelly sad.
In my case I'm trying to avoid to home-return. I'm doing Erasmus in Birmingham, UK and I found myself the perfect excuse to stay in the UK a summer job as an activity leader.
When is over in August I'll start looking for a real job, a permanent job abroad, not back home.
I came back one week ago from Sweden......It was the best five months i've ever had in my life......Everything here looks so boring, so sad......I love my friends here but they really can't understand how i feel right now......so confused without having a clue what i really want to do with my life.....I took the decision to take part in the Erasmus program because i felt like i didn't have a life in my home country...nothing interesting, exciting.....and now i am so afraid that it will be the same again....
I met so many nice people there, so many different cultures, i traveled a lot...i don't want to forget anything.....
i hope i will find my way here by doing what i really want and changing everything makes me sad.....i just hope.....
What people who have gone away on Erasmus fail to realise is the mixed feelings of the people they have left at home. The knowledge that their friend/loved one is experiencing the year of a lifetime whilst they are stuck at home...and when the erasmus year is over, to be thought of as so boring, so dull compared to the friends they made abroad. It is not just difficult for people going away on Erasmus, and it is not just them suffering when erasmus is over....
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